{"id":856,"date":"2011-07-25T05:00:22","date_gmt":"2011-07-25T05:00:22","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mbear.ca\/?p=856"},"modified":"2014-08-06T16:40:40","modified_gmt":"2014-08-06T16:40:40","slug":"856","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/?p=856","title":{"rendered":"Second Thoughts"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><i>We left Vancouver Island today.\u00a0 Perfect day.\u00a0 Detached, mackerel clouds in a tall, blue sky, scudding in front of the rising, warm summer wind.\u00a0 A crow watched us leave from the top of an ancient cedar towering on the shore, calling out how crazy we are to be leaving this breathtaking beauty that has the feel of home in my DNA.<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>Choppy waters today.\u00a0 Leaving day.\u00a0 No easy slide to the mainland on the mid-day ferry.\u00a0 Whitecap froth reached up to say \u2018good-bye\u2019, call us back, slow the leaving.\u00a0 Do I really want to leave?\u00a0 That\u2019s a question already asked and answered a hundred times.\u00a0 We\u2019re leaving.\u00a0 For a new adventure.\u00a0 We just don\u2019t know what it looks like yet.\u00a0 Funny how that\u2019s getting harder and harder to swallow with any enthusiasm.<\/i><!--more--><\/p>\n<p><i>A float plane slips through the air just above the growing swells, or so it looks from the ferry deck.\u00a0 It pulls on my heart-strings as if it were a lifeline, to wing me into the air, and back.<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>Another ferry boat chugs toward us through the newborn whitecaps, metal belly bulging with people seeking the place we\u2019re leaving.<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u201cJump ship!\u00a0 Jump!\u00a0 Swim back!\u201d something in me cries.\u00a0 \u201cCome back home!\u00a0 Don\u2019t go!\u00a0 Don\u2019t!\u201d<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>But life pulls me forward into today and now and tomorrow and new.\u00a0 As we ease out of the harbor on our two-hour ride to the mainland, yesterday begins seeping into memory archives for safe keeping.<\/i><\/p>\n<p><i>\u00a0<\/i><i>\u201cCome!\u00a0 Seek!\u00a0 New!\u00a0 Now!\u00a0 Try!\u00a0 See!\u00a0 Ask!\u00a0 Look!\u00a0 Discover!\u00a0 Live!\u201d<\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>We left Vancouver Island today.\u00a0 Perfect day.\u00a0 Detached, mackerel clouds in a tall, blue sky, scudding in front of the rising, warm summer wind.\u00a0 A crow watched us leave from the top of an ancient cedar towering on the shore,&#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":36,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-856","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"post_mailing_queue_ids":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/856","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=856"}],"version-history":[{"count":13,"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/856\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1187,"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/856\/revisions\/1187"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/36"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=856"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=856"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mbear.ca\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=856"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}